Thursday, May 24, 2007
Let's try this again
Did not get enough sleep last night. Sigh.....
I tried out a new sleeping pill that my doc suggested since most of them last too long, and others give me side effects like a metallic taste in my mouth. I took a nitrazapam last night, it didn't do much at all and I woke up screaming from a nightmare, directly into my husband's ear at 6:00 am. Poor man...he jumped right out of bed like the house was on fire.
I'm trying one of the other pills tonight.
And the nightmare? In it my oldest son magically jumped in a sewer manhole on a construction site and disappeared and died, and no one cared. The construction workmen, the firemen, my husband, various onlookers all just stood around and said, "Sorry, oh well, we can't explain why, but don't worry, you can always have another one!" And in the dream, I just kept screaming, "Go get him! Do something !!" until I actually screamed that out loud for REAL into Mr.Cotta's ear.
Hmmmm, a gold star to anyone who can figure out the neurosis behind this one. LOL
(And no, don't worry the boys are really perfectly fine and healthy, and my husband has forgiven me.)
Oh, and for those of you interested in the whole circadian rhythm thing, sleep wake cycles, and the relationship to various hormones for men and women check this out. It has a plain language explanation on different pages, and links to some scientific studies. I own one of GoLites, and love it almost as much as I love my little vibrating toys. Yes, your grandma WAS right; Early to bed, early to rise, makes you healthy, wealthy and wise. (And hormonally balanced, and young, and sexy, and fashionable. hehe)
In all seriousness, I know people get pregnant even when they drink martinis, smoke crack, party all night, and eat crappy food, but for those of us who are not Uberfertile? Ehhhh, I need to sleep well, and eat decently, and lower my risk profile, if you know what I mean. I just don't get the luxury of those choices with my crappy health.
So I'm off to burn dinner now...oooops, I mean cook a lovely dinner.
Meals ain't always pretty at the House of Cotta, but they're never raw! hehe