Tuesday, October 16, 2007

Progress

Just a bit. This ultrasound was more comprehensive, and only drove me slightly insane. You see the tech was muttering the entire freakin' time, and as missed conceptions mentioned, was vaguely concerned about doing a transvaginal ultrasound and reluctant to insert the dildocam.

Meanwhile, I'd already shucked off all my clothes, leapt up on the table and spread my legs, ready for ACTION!

Never let it be said that I am unwilling to do anything in this adventure.

The tech was very nice, but kept looking at me with fear or perhaps horror in her eyes after she heard this was no.8 in a series of pregnancies.

Unfortunately, she too was lame and did not give me all the measurements I wanted. They did do all the measurements like fetal heartrate, and recorded them, but would not do anything besides show me the screen and the heartbeat. Plus, she kept muttering, words like "Small, very very tiny, so small." They then promised to fax a report to my Doc, which had more info than this morning, but not much.

Dr.J. called me on my cell, from her cell, with what she had which was that the fetus is measuring 6 weeks 0 Days and that there was a heartbeat, and they gave her no numbers beyond that in this interim report. I know they will do a more comprehensive report and get it to her later, but in the meantime I am still hoping for more.

Fuck I hate these people. They just don't understand the concept of the stress of a recurrent miscarrier and how having information like the Crown Rump Length in proportion to the heartrate vs. gestational sac size can really relax a woman like me. Having someone pat me on the head and tell me "Relax," is not helpful. Giving me actual data I can rely on, IS relaxing.

So yes I am measuring right for dates, thank God, but my question is, where can I buy, rent, or steal a goddamn ultrasound machine so I can avoid these buttheads? And yes, if I ever become a doctor myself, I promise, I swear to you my compatriots to never ever patronize a patient. It's simply wrong. Just so so wrong.

P.S. I intend on finding a high risk practice that will give me the info real time so this never happens again. It's just a pain in the rear for these early weeks.

Weeeee, just before I hit publish Dr.J. called me again and she promised to call them tomorrow and ask for the heartrate and other numbers! Technically, she accidentally hit the redial button by accident, but for tonight, we're going with fate, magical thinking baggage and all.

27 comments:

  1. And is it just me or do they get less and less responsive the more high risk one becomes.

    AAAGH!

    But it sounds good thus far!

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  2. I hope you get all the answers you want tomorrow. And if you are looking for an ultrasound machine, call T0m Cru1se. I believe he has one at home.

    I know, very lame. But it is a Tuesday and it is all I got for you.

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  3. Okay, more good than bad. When's the next scan?

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  4. You mean you didn't get this scan done at our clinic? 'Cause they usually give all the information you could ask for...

    Can't even express how much I hate ultrasound techs who can't tell you anything.

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  5. Ok, well, *after* all that it sounds so far so good. Hopefully more numbers will confirm that and you'll find somewhere that fits your needs better.

    Bea

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  6. Have you thought of calling Tom Cruise? He probably doesn't need that u/s machine anymore.

    I hope things are a-okay.

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  7. Whoops...didn't read the other comments - I see that someone else had the same good idea about Mr. Cruise.

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  8. I found your blog thru Everything is Under Control. About the ultrasound machine--Tom Cruise got one, maybe you can borrow his :-)

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  9. Oh, great--I didn't read the above comments either about the Cruise reference. And here I was, thinking I was all clever! :-)

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  10. What? You don't listen when medical personal tells you to not worry your pretty little head about it? How very strange of you.
    Ok, sarcasm off.

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  11. Y'know, I seem to recall reading somewhere recently that Tom Cruise has an ultrasound machine. ... ; )

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  12. Jeez, why can't they just realize that we multiple lossers need a bit more information than that???? I'm glad everything sounds like it's on track, though, and hope the good news continues tomorrow.

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  13. Ack! sorry, I didn't read your previous post. I get it now.

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  14. It's a great start, that's for sure - and that's good news for now!

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  15. OMG Aurelia, I drop off the radar for a wee while and I'll be darned if you and Nicole are both up the duff! I am so happy for you, especially that the embryo is measuring on track and has a heartbeat. WAY TO GO! Now, I'll have everything crossed it stays that way for the next 34 weeks.
    xClare

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  16. At one ultrasound I had the tech was so serious and would not answer ANY of my questions. The US took forever and she kept clicking to save data and I was certain by the time it was over that everything was horrid and expected bad news again. Then the doc came in and said, all looks great see you in a month. I wanted to kick someone. DETAILS..I NEED DETAILS. I stopped doc in the hall and wouldn't let him into the next exam room till he answered my questions..geesh!

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  17. I'm glad that from the little information they gave you, everything is on track.

    I hope the doc manages to get them to get their butts in gear and really give some info!!!

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  18. Can't wait to hear your update. You must be going out of your mind right now!

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  19. Sounds like good news thus far...
    [I have an U/S machine, but I'm a far piece away from ya!]
    Reminds me uncomfortably of my encounter w/Dr X, the perinatalogist who had the WORST*BEDSIDE*MANNER*EVER!!! Slaps the probe on my 14-wk belly, scans in silence for a while as Hub & I get tantalizing glimpses of head, spine, hands & feet, etc...When Hubby asks if we can record some video now (this was in Ancient Times, 11 yrs ago w/an old-fashioned VHS tape!), Dr X brusquely says, "No, your baby has spina bifida & hydrocephalus."
    Fuck me very much.
    [Apologies for throwing in MY horror story, Aurelia]

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  20. Just the measurement plus the fact there IS a heartbeat sounds like wonderful news to me. I never thought I'd consider myself so easy to please! I'm very happy for you, hope you get some more good info tomorrow.

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  21. if I ever become a doctor myself

    I'm totally moving to CA if that happens!

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  22. Do you think if we pooled all our money, we could BUY some attention for us worriers? Wishing only the best for you and your little one. And thanks for the sweetness over on my blog - you're fantastic.

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  23. Thinking of you....and hoping you get some good answers soon.

    You have a heartbeat...so, that is a good sign. Hope you can concentrate on that for now until the full report comes in.

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  24. so far so good, more or less, right? I HATE it when they won't tell you anything....

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  25. For those of us for whom miscarriage is an unhealthy habit, they should have a DOCTOR do the scan so they can tell you everything right then and there.

    In my last miscarriage, the u/s tech whispered (a major violation) that the non-viable heart rate had not gone up. I was so thankful, even for the bad news.

    It is also fun when your u/s tech is 7 months pregnant. And glowing.

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