Friday, January 26, 2007

Hormonal Madness

I'm having wild mood swings, (can you tell from that last post?) I crave odd foods, nothing has "arrived" yet, and I feel slightly nauseous, then perfectly fine.

But there are no double lines showing up anywhere.

I feel slightly crampy, and backachey, but with no definitive proof of anything, I can't just get drunk, as I so desperately want to. Usual cycle for me this last couple of years, 24 days max. In my WHOLE LIFE I've never had a 30 day cycle and not been pregnant, or pregnant and having a miscarriage.

I am also now terrified that something awful has happened, and I will now be horribly sick and need some sort of medical attention. Normally I'd be running for the damn dildocam and blood tests, but this week, I feel frozen, like I don't.want.to.know.

I just want to curl up in a little ball on the couch, and let someone else take care of me. I feel so awful right now. I hate my uterus.

9 comments:

  1. I hope that this cycle sorts itself out soon. Being late with no double lines is pure torture.

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  2. Oh, my, what is going on? Good luck--hope you are feeling better soon.

    Eva
    http://antropologa.wordpress.com/

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  3. I hope something gives and breaks you out of the hormonal crazies. I seem to deal with those feelings every other day.

    I'll be thinking of you.

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  4. Oh, my friend, I am so so sorry that you're struggling. Tell the hubby to give you all the tender loving care you need, pronto. And know you're not alone. I am curled up on the next couch over, feelin' funky too. You are in my thoughts and meditations.

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  5. I had this problem last year when after having regular periods, I then had a 43 day cycle out of the blue. I was ttc and keep poas and getting bfn's. It was hell. All my adult life I used to have 28 day cycles. then 43 days. then a more regular 32/33 days. My RE said I (being over weight) should lose 10% of my body mass weight to try and regain regular cycles and he also said some women (who are skinny) need to gain 10% of the body mass weight. I don't know how big/small you are, but weight could be something to look into. I lost 10kg, then got more regular cycles, then got a bfp. I'm sorry you've having this limbo of bfn's and no AF. That sucks.

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  6. Ugh, I am sorry, it sounds tortuous. THere's no chance you've got a crappy bunch of tests, is there?

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  7. Thalia,
    You may be right, I keep thinking about what Jess said in the earlier post about those early ones not working for her. I'm going back to the drugstore today...and the doctor on monday.

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  8. Keeping fingers crossed for good news!

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