Tuesday, January 23, 2007

I'm so frickin' behind

I have a stack of stuff to do, like call the plumber, organize a bunch of paper, get the piano fixed, finish off my personal calender...and maybe even deal with the whole day 28 thing, cause y'know tomorrow is day 29.

Everytime I read a blog of an infertile, or just a woman TTC, I'm struck by how much they all want to POAS, like every day. Meanwhile, I'm freaked at the thought of just buying the stupid sticks. This wasn't supposed to be happening this month. It probably isn't. I wasn't tracking anything, I can't remember when Mr.Cotta and I well, y'know? I know we did...but at the right time, with all the bits in matching places?

I don't have time to go to the Doctor for an HCG, so why even bother to POAS? I'll just be disappointed. So why am I wondering? Because my body doesn't do 28-9 day cycles EVER without a team of Doctors on standby, 200 mg of prometrium/day and Provera combined. And I had too much estrogen this month to be slipping into menopause again. So, I'm imagining all of this, unless...unless...unless

Fuck---I'm going shopping tomorrow.

And calling a plumber. Just so the day isn't a total waste.


  1. Cute post. You told me, "maybe", so I'm saying it back :) Just don't shoot me if I'm wrong :) :) :)

  2. ooohhh, I hear the call of those evil pee sticks! wishing you much luck that this was your cycle. You deserve a lucky break.

  3. You have me on the edge of my seat. Please update as soon as you know something.

  4. Oh boy!!!! Just the idea of hope makes me excited for you. If it doesn't work out, well then fuck it. Go shopping. I am one of those POAS freaks, but that's because I'm an idiot. I look forward to your update, whether you POAS or not.

  5. WHOA Lady! I am crossing fingers, toes, etc.!