Because then you would all know that I am content mostly sort-of-ish, like all week until last night, which got all screwed up. You see, AF still isn't here, and I'm not pg, so now I'm just waiting for Godot.
I have lots of estrogen, but am overheated, sweaty, nervous, non-existent to light periods...you know hyperthyroid, except that my TSH looks normal sometimes, then really low. I'm getting another RAIU scan April 10th, so here's hoping it shows something and someone gives a damn...unlikely, but who knows?
I've had insomnia for a week now and I'm trying to keep it together, but I fell apart yesterday, between parent-teacher meetings, appointments, & errands and the house looked like a mess when hubs came home. So he freaked...we had been getting along so well for the last little while. And we had a fight. I just can't stand fighting, but inevitably when I'm tired and cranky and hormonal I say the wrong thing or do the wrong thing, and set him off, but it gets worse because he just can't let go of petty old resentments that he has built up. At one point, we were getting along and had sort of made up, but had another fight when he got angry over something from THREE years ago.
Like I remember 3 years ago? Major stuff, yes, but a little dispute over parking the car? Hardly...I know we'll make up, but still, not fun.
Anyway, I've got to go finish my film before Bea kicks my ass....it's almost done...
Oh, head's up..do NOT see Pan's Labyrinth if you have ever had a miscarriage, or stillbirth, or high-risk pregnancy and as far as current movies go...."Meet the Robinsons" doesn't sound like a great movie for adoptees or really anyone who cares about adoption to see. We all know Disney has a weird obsession with missing or dying mothers in it's movies...from Bambi to Tarzan, they just can't show a living normal mother, but this one is strange...the kid is looking for his "Birth Mother", but he is described as an "orphan", (if he really was an orphan, she'd be dead, duh...obviously she's alive) and everyone seems to want to hide the information he needs. They keep telling him to "keep moving forward" and ignore the past...except that's bullshit as we all know.
Yes, Bea we do need the International Infertility Film Festival!
And maybe an adoption one next. We'll get some of the first Moms to do that...hehe