Friday, October 05, 2007

I don't know what to type

There's no way of beating around the bush on this one.

I'm pregnant.

That BFN? It was a BFN when I peed on a stick, but when I went for the blood test Monday, it was a beta of 116.

And on Wednesday it was a beta of 365.

And today, Friday, it's 996.

I'm on baby aspirin, 400 mg of prometrium, intravaginally, 5,000 iu a day of fragmin, and enough folic acid to choke a horse.

My first ultrasound is on the 16th.

So why did I wait to tell all of you? Because I didn't actually believe it was true myself, until it doubled Wednesday, and I had to tell my husband first before I told the entire internet. You know, my husband, the guy who wasn't so sure it was a good idea to try again, in light of the fact that our batting average sucks when it comes to live baby achievement?

I was kind of afraid to tell him, because I also am a little over the top psycho emotionally when I am pregnant. In fact, the roller coaster from hell is the usual way in which he describes it.

But instead of getting upset, or overly anxious, my darling sweet fabulous husband took me in his arms and told me he was happy. And he really really wants me to try to stay calm.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm PREGNANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

DHEA WORKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

EVERYONE ON EARTH SHOULD TAKE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

TO ALL THE FERTILITY DOCS WHO TOLD ME TO GIVE UP, "YOU WERE WRONG, YOU ASSHOLES!!!!!"


As you can see, I am not so good at calm.

I know this pregnancy could end tomorrow. I have only a tiny chance of getting a an actual live baby out of this.

But for today, for right now, for each and every day that I am pregnant, I am going to be thankful for this tiny little chance at some joy.

One day at a time.

51 comments:

  1. Somehow I thought so.

    YAY! So happy for you!

    I'm gonna post before someone else beats me to it.

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  2. So happy for you. Yay for good husbands, yay for DHEA, yay for rocking betas.

    One day at a time.

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  3. Yeah, I totally get why you waited to tell us. Now fasten your seatbelt and hang on for the ride. :o)

    Congratulations!

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  4. Hmmmm. What to type, what to type...

    YEAAAAHHHHHH!!

    OK, how 'bout a HELL YEAHHHHH!!

    I swear. Everyone and their blogging sister has announced a pregnancy this month. *grumbling with a big fat grin on my face*

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  5. WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

    Can you tell I'm happy to read this. I know, like myself, you'll be on tenderhooks until that first scan, so no C word from me until I hear more :)

    WEEEEEEEEEEEE!

    XXX

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  6. Great, super betas! Let your joy grow day by day.

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  7. I am incredibly happy for you! And crossing everything I can cross that you beat the odds and end up with the baby you want and deserve.

    Hee, I would totally pay you a dollar if you wrote "You were wrong, you assholes!" on your belly for the first scan ....

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  8. This is fantastic news!

    Yeah, for the DHEA--you are right everyone should take it.

    Everything is crossed for you, Aurelia--you deserve this so much.

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  9. Wowee! Congratulations! I'm keeping everything crossed that you're in this one for the long haul. Best wishes, and enjoy your weekend!

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  10. Not to be all smug or anything, but I *knew* you were pregnant and I told you to get a blood test when you posted about that BFN (because the same thing had just happened to me). *grin*

    I am THRILLED for you. Whheeee!!

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  11. One day at a time indeed. Congratulations!

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  12. WOW, OMG, oh and did I say WOW!

    I'm happy, happy, happy for you!

    Between you and Leah, I need be sure I'm getting in all 3 DHEA per day!

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  13. Holy Fuck! Sorry, that was my initial response!

    I am in shock and so happy for you, Aurelia!

    I hope this continues to bring nothing but good news!

    And Holy Fuck again! Can you tell I am in shock? And thrilled? And keeping everything crossed!!

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  14. Reality took the words right out of my mouth...

    HOLY FUCK!!!

    This is awesome. And those numbers - fabulous! I wanna bet on this one being a keeper.

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  15. aaaaahhhhh
    quelle surprize!
    WwwwwooooooHHooooooooo!

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  16. Holy moley!!!! Congrats my dear!!! I am so so very excited and happy for you.

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  17. Un-freaking-believable! Wow and Wow again. I am so happy for you and I have been a DHEA convert for a while now.

    Wow!!!!!

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  18. Wow! Congrats! Michelle from Mommy Someday delurking here to wish you the best!!!!

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  19. Yeah! That's great news Aurelia!

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  20. CONGRATULATIONS! Your betas are beautiful! I can't wait to hear more :)

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  21. You have great betas. Let's hope there's more greatness to come. Yay for the good news!

    Bea

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  22. WOW! Congratulations!!!! Yay!!!

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  23. That's the best thing I've heard all day.

    Congratulations and good luck!

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  24. Oh wow, I am so happy for you... great and strong betas. CONGRTULATIONS!!!!!!!!!I am glad that you're calm... I understand what YOU mean about being psycho emotionally, I feel this way right now 9 as you can see , I can't sleep LOL). All the best!!!!

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  25. OH MY GOD!!! This is absolutely AMAZING news - I'm speechless! (incredible for me...!)

    (so far all dhea has done for me is make af go awol)

    Congratulations to you my friend xxx

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  26. Great numbers and fabulous news.

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  27. "But for today, for right now, for each and every day that I am pregnant" I am thrilled for you.

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  28. OMG, OMG, OMG!!!! Congratulations!! I am thrilled for you, after everything you have been through! Good luck - the betas sound so, so good!

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  29. What absolutely wonderful news! Wow.

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  30. This is fantastic news! Fingers crossed for you!

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  31. excellent news! Congrats! Stick baby stick

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  32. I am so so happy for you! You will be in my thoughts! I am just having one of those "anything is possible" days - and this is just one of those amazing things!

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  33. Wow - that is amazing! Congratulations!

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  34. Umm... Happy Thanksgiving! What a wonderful thing to be thankful for!

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  35. Congrats, Aurelia! Love to hear the "beat the odds" pregnancy announcements. Wishing you all the best, PJ

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  36. First time here and what a happy occasion! I do have to ask, what is DHEA?

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  37. Katie,

    Click on the label POF or trying again for a longer explanation but my ovaries failed a long time ago, and DHEA has brought them back to life. I've gone from no eggs to lots, and now I'm hoping I won't miscarry.

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  38. Hooray!!! Congratulations!!!

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  40. David, I think you are visiting the wrong blog?

    Next time, read a bit more before you comment.

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  41. You must be doing well, you have people campagning for president on your blog, and you arent' even a citizen.

    Tryuly, congrats from a habitual lurker.

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  42. OH WOW OH WOW OH WOW!!!!!

    I am hoping upon hope upon hope that this ends with your bringing home a gorgeous, healthy, screaming baby!!

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  43. Congrats!
    And props to you for soaking up a little joy out of this. One day at a time...good. Good.

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  44. Congratulations, this is excellent news.

    One day at a time indeed.

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  45. I desperately need to pull my head out of my ass - I JUST learned this news TODAY!!!!

    I'm thrilled for you - I really, really am! I know there's a long way to go and we all know too much to be the blissfully ignorant people we once were, but I HAVE to believe that things will be different this time. I have to for you and for me.

    I'm thinking of you so much! And I hope to keep seeing good news coming from these pages.

    A million ((((((HUGS))))))

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