Did you know?

...that all the answers to life can be found in Postsecret and The West Wing series?

Just kidding....sort of.

This Sunday's Post Secret was pretty good, I always get something out of it, even if the postcards of the week don't necessarily fit my particular life stress. And every once in awhile, I get a hit of joy.

This week, there was a postcard that quoted the book of Isaiah "I will even make a way in the wilderness." Someone had written on it, "My Pastor always talks about how if people would find God, they wouldn't need pills. I'm Bipolar, but took his advice....My Pastor is an idiot!!!"

And all I could think of is, yes, that pastor is an idiot. That poor person must have gone through hell off their meds.

Well there is an email reply today to that post card which I just loved.

Subject: God, not pills

Sometimes, God answers by giving us the tools to take care of ourselves.

Yes, yes he just might. I've found some good Doctors, fragmin, baby aspirin, antibiotics, and progesterone as some of my tools. I didn't have them before, and lots of people keep telling me they think it's unnatural to take them now. I can't tell you how many idiotic doctors have told me that progesterone causes masculinization of female babies genitals, something totally untrue, and completely awful to imply since a lack of progesterone can cause miscarriage and prematurity.

And implying (even based on crappy science) that it's better to be dead than intersex or transexual is disgusting.

Baby aspirin is completely safe throughout pregnancy and can reduce the risk of miscarriage and preeclampsia. Extremely large doses aspirin and NSAIDS are different and can cause problems, but again, they are different drugs. And Fragmin? Low molecular weight heparin is incredibly safe during pregnancy, and unlike regular heparin, poses no risk of osteoporosis, something I'd be hyperalert to but still willing to risk. Meanwhile, I have friends who know nothing about medicine freaking out on me telling me how terribly dangerous heparin is, and that I could die of a hemorragic stroke, simply by taking it. My eyerolling is going right to the back of my head at this point people.

Odd part is that on the heparin, I have only a couple of bruises, no major bleeding during blood draws, and no bleeding during dental work. Except for the tiredness, I feel fantastic compared to my usual pregnancy hell. Normally, I'd be on the floor sick as a dog, but I'm not. Any chance the fragmin is making my blood clot normally during pregnancy, and if I was pregnant without it, I'd have too many clots, like I did with my last two losses?

I can't help but think, that maybe just maybe something is going to go right this time. Whether I credit doctors or DHEA or dumb luck, or God, or fate, something is very very different and I can't ignore that real physical change in my body this time.

Do I wish I'd had it before? Absolutely....but I can't change the past, and I can't change the fact that my Doctors didn't realize I needed it. Maybe they needed to listen to research and years of medical experience more and to idiots like this preacher less. Maybe conventional wisdom that says all medication is bad, and especially for pregnant women and the mentally ill, is just convention, and not any freakin' wisdom at all.

Maybe the right medication in the right circumstances is the best thing we can do for our health and our lives and by snubbing our noses at science and knowledge we are turning our backs on the greatest gift God has ever given us.

The gifts of intelligence and common sense.