Tuesday, May 27, 2008

My adorable little guy and how he got here


I have some more photos, mostly from my phone, although several are from are our real high tech camera---the one we never got to use, because we got quite a surprise. Once again, no birth film, even like this, geez I wish I had one.

Speaking of which, I know some of the details I wrote were kind of sketchy, and I'm actually trying very hard to remember more, but my biggest issue right now is that I don't remember certain things because I was in such extreme pain, (non-labour pain- so far some people are speculating that that pain was my placenta was tearing, and that pain is nightmarish) or when I was passed out cold, no bp etc.....and that little blank spot is getting me a bit freaked out to be honest.

Anyway, in my usual fashion, I am trying to speak to as many people as possible who were there who can give me their version, and maybe that will jog my memory more. I need to remember it more clearly. Fill in the blanks.

For now, I just wanted you all to know that so far as I can tell my birth plan was followed. My C-section was completely absolutely medically necessary and I didn't even need to whip out the rusty butter knife to do my own. They were very kind and gentle to me at all times, even when I was being wheeled down the corrider at top speed. Mr.Cotta was put in charge of the baby as soon as he had his scrubs on, even though he admitted he was so shocked that it took some time for him to put his pants on.

There was some early interventions that they wanted to do, but my nurse, Livia, who was an absolute angel, told them no, it wasn't medically indicated, and stopped them! And later when some goofy medical student was eyeing my chart and wanted to ask the complicated lady some questions while contracting...she stopped him from coming into my room. And near the end, when my epidural had failed and my pain was so unstoppable I begged everyone to kill me, she held my face in her hands, and spoke to me slowly and clearly and told me that they were trying to find out what was causing the pain.....and that alone, knowing that someone gave a damn enough to try to save me, that alone made me want to live.

These are the bits I remember tonight as I sit here, getting transfused, weak as a kitten and swollen and beaten up.

Baby is sleeping, he finally agreed to latch on and drink some breastmilk so he could be discharged from the NICU. (Funny contrast to the U.S. here-babies there are required to be able to bottlefeed to be discharged from a NICU, here, no one cares as long as they eat one way or another, and if the momma wants to breastfeed, then they go to town to make sure she can. At least at this NICU....weird huh?)

Time for me to sleep, maybe snuggle with this baby....take care my sweets.

55 comments:

  1. What a cutie!
    Sleep tight, k?

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  2. I can't believe he was *inside* your belly just a few days ago. Amazing.

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  3. Absolutely one of the most beautiful babies I have ever seen (and I don't say those kinds of things). I'm completely overjoyed for you. Now please, get some rest and get better quick so you can get your fill of him (ha! as if that's possible :)

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  4. I was down with a stomache virus and missed your initial post. OMG!!! I am so glad that you are able to tell us this happy-ended tale in your inimitable fashion. Now, rest!!!

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  5. Congratulations! He is beautiful.

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  6. Oh my gosh, he is gorgeous. Just completely beautiful and perfect.

    I'm so sorry you had such a traumatic experience but it sounds like you were surrounded by the right people. That sure can make all the difference, huh?

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  7. He really is adorable :-)

    I know it's totally different, but my daughter (turning 12 next week) needed to be resuscitated after she was born (apgar 5) and to this day I don't know what happened. I wasn't pushy enough to find out and my doctor (then) claimed he was afraid to tell me.

    She's 100% fine, except her learning disabilities, which are probably unrelated, but I do sort of wish I knew what happened... I think the knowledge would have given me a certain peace - so I think it's great that you're questioning everyone now.

    Congratulations for getting your little boy to latch on! I always found those first few days challenging.

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  8. He takes my breath away. I like good endings.

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  9. He's absolutely Gorgeous. Congratulations! Get well quickly.
    Dawn

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  10. He is absolutely beautiful! Awww!

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  11. Holy shit, I missed everything. I'm so sorry I wasn't cheering you on at every post.

    CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!

    He is so adorable. And you have horseshoes up your ass. And a beautiful, live, healthy baby. Awesome.

    Now, go enjoy the hospital breakfast. As far as I'm concerned, those muffins are awesome.

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  12. He is beautiful. Just beautiful. Have tears welling and spilling all over here.

    I'm glad they respected your birth plan and Livia sounds absolutely incredible.

    When you're out and feeling better, wouldn't hurt to send a note to the head of the Nursing Staff singing Livia's praises. It can make such a difference. :)

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  13. Oh my, he is soooo precious!! Thanks for sharing!! I'm glad that even though you had a traumatic experience, there were good things that happened along the way too.

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  14. Oh, look at those beautiful EYES! I just gasped when I saw him.

    I'm so, so happy for you and your family.

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  15. Oh I love him! He's just gorgeous.

    You know, when Samuel was in the NICU that one night we did have to bottle feed him until his bilirubin dropped a bit - actually the docs said I could breastfeed him but that they'd very much prefer I pump and bottle feed because the more time under the light, the faster the recovery, then I got to totally hog a lactation consultant's time with a million questions. Of course then when I got home I felt so lost, but it has all worked out and her advice was really good in the end. I think it really depends upon the hospital.

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  16. He is absolutely gorgeous!

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  17. What a beautiful baby! I am so happy for you.

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  18. He really is gorgeous, Aurelia! And, I am so relieved to see that you are being well cared for. Nighty-night.

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  19. He is so beautiful!!! I am so happy for you!

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  20. Congratulations on your beautiful, healthy wee lad! Get some rest and enjoy him!

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  21. Awwwwww...so sweet! He looks like a good one-word caption might be "OY!" like "WTF people I was chillin in utero and then things went black and there was this bright light and duuuuuude..." Funny how after all YOU went through HE looks a bit put-upon :) Congratulations, Aurelia, I've been waiting a long time to say that to you and I'm glad you finally got your LIVE nursing baby (and he's even uncommonly good-looking!) to take home when you're feeling up to it. Also, GOOD FOR YOU for advocating for yourself and getting them to keep you. Next time some medical type makes you question yourself and your own knowledge of things medical and your body in particular, remember that YOU saved yourself and your baby! Well done!

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  22. What. A. Beauty. I don't know what it is, I have girls, and yet boy babies make my ovaries hurt and my eyes water. Absolutely steals my heart.

    And as for your story, I'm off to send some nurses I know some muffins and $ for new scrubs because the good ones just aren't thanked enough. Let me know yours and I'll do the same.

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  23. Oof. Glad you're both okay. Get some rest!

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  24. He is SO ADORABLE! I am so glad you are both doing well now.

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  25. Congratulations! He is beautiful!

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  26. He's adorable. Congratulations!

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  27. Aw, he really is gorgeous!

    I know you know this already, but as someone who also had a pregnancy complication that can easily kill both mom and baby quickly, my advice on the piecing-things-together-in-your-mind project is to ask as many questions of as many people who were in the room as you can BEFORE you leave the hospital. Because medical records are incredibly bare of the details you will crave after the fact. And it is hard to track down the appropriate staff for a Q&A session once you've left.

    Some things you'll probably never have a complete record of, unfortunately. But hopefully you'll be able to create a clear enough picture where you can at least be at peace about what happened.

    Again, congrats on the both of you making it through.

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  28. he's beautiful. I'm glad for the good staff that took care of you.

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  29. I'm so glad to hear that you were well cared for in such a difficult and SCARY situation.

    And baby is beautiful.

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  30. He is gorgeous! Congratulations again!

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  31. He is indeed a model of cuteness. So pleased you had a nurse who was totally on your side.

    I would second what Wabi says about collaring as many people as you can before you are discharged.

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  32. He's beautiful!

    Thank goodness for nurse Livia. So glad she was there with you.

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  33. He is beautiful! I am so happy for you. I am sorry things didn't go down the way you planned, but happy that you were odviously in good hands.

    Now, go get some sleep.

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  34. congratulations on your beautiful baby!

    rest up, heal well and most of all, get some rest!

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  35. He's stunning, Aurelia. Beautiful. Congratulations once again!

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  36. He si so cute! Congratulations. I just read your birth story, I am glad that both of you are okay. Take care

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  37. Congrats on the kiddo. Nearly shares a birthday with a sibling, and a grandparent of mine.

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  38. wow...horrible 'story' to try to piece together....

    ....wow...wonderful 'story' to tell the whole world!!!

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  39. Yay! That is so wonderful. He is beautiful.

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  40. Oh my god. He is SO CUTE. And I'm not just saying that. He is ADORABLE. Congratulations!

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  41. Hellride. But I'm glad your birthplan was followed, and you do have a beautiful baby to show for your efforts.

    Bea

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  42. Congratulations! I am a regular reader of your blog and I just wanted to say that is the most beautiful baby boy I've ever seen! Blessings to you and your family.....

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  43. Wow--what a story! I am so glad everything turned out OK for you both. It sounds like you got wonderful care.

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  44. WOW. What a story. Congrats and a total cutie.

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  45. wow! where the heck have i been? congrats to you and big big hugs!!!

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  46. Congratulations Aurelia and welcome to the big (outside) world Geo.rge. He is something so special.

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  47. What a delightful picture! I am so excited to finally be able to say the word: Congratulations!

    Your birth sounds so scary, though I'm grateful you were in the right place at the right time for everything to work out. Wishing you a speedy recovery.

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  48. Many Congratulations to you and the whole family, Aurelia. Your newest little boy is gorgeous.

    I'm sorry about all you had to go through to have him arrive, but thrilled that both of you are doign ok.

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  49. What a handsome little man Aurelia! Belated congratulations to you. I hope you're recovering well.

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  50. What a gorgeous little man!!

    Congrats!!

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  51. What a beautiful little guy! I'm so glad you both made it through that safe. :)

    You're totally right, by the way, about the NICU and breastfeeding. When the girls were in the NICU they told me I could breastfeed them all I wanted but that they couldn't come home until they took a bottle. They never did breastfeed. Broke my heart.

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