I had something important to write and now, I don't know what the hell it was. Pregnancy brain? I'm just going to ramble and see what happens maybe.
I'm taking more medication for heartburn by combining the losec and some zantac, as well as switching the time of day I take my calcium. The losec is time release and I wondered if the calcium was binding to the rest of the losec and therefore, leaving me sick as a dog since I'm not getting the full dose? Anyway, I got some more sleep last night so eventually I may not feel like crap. Thing is, I have a whole bunch of symptoms that could be pregnancy-related or could be something else. And I have no idea how to tell the difference. Neither do my doctors.
Alternatively, I have caught some awful stomach intestinal bug that will never ever leave me and I will feel like hell forever. Here's hoping I'm wrong, eh? It's just that an irritable uterus could be caused by some irritable intestines snuggled up beside them, and meantime, what does this mean for the baby? I don't know---he's kicking away right now, just fine, but the whole thing makes me nervous.
It could also be nothing, just my imagination.
I missed meeting Pam and V. last night, and I feel terrible, I was just so tired I knew I'd fall on my face. And today LAS emailed and she was going to be in Toronto, but she ended up cancelling for work, so at this point, I'm not really getting out of the house. Even though I do have lots to do.
Oh to the people who commented on my last post, thanks, I know stories like that bother adoptive parents especially, but also anyone who has an interest in raising children, so I apologize. I kept thinking that maybe I was just bothered by it because I'm adopted, but if the rest of you think it was unacceptable---then maybe I can just say who cares about the diaper genie, you know? We had both gone through IF at the same time together, and so we were close at one time, and then after she started saying squidgey things about the kid, I felt like it was good for me to stay around her and the kid just in case, maybe influence the mom not to talk about the money thing....but after awhile I don't think she wanted me around either.
You see, I'm the adoptee who found her birth mother, and doesn't speak to her adoptive parents, and she knew there were really legit reasons----but she still never wanted me to repeat that story in front her daughter and give her ideas. Bizarre twist, this was also the case with some relatives of my birth mother. My birth mother's sister had adopted her kids, and said straight out that I was never ever allowed to meet them or her or go to any family event because she "didn't want my presence to give them any ideas."
Snort----yep, we adoptees who have found our birth parents are recruiting for our secret conspiracy group. For every adoptee we lure to the Dark Side, we get a free toaster. And damn, what I won't do for small appliances.
Or maybe I'm a disease, like I'm catching?
Somehow, I just don't think I'm quite that viral.
Yeah, I know here I am telling more bad stories, and making everyone feel like shit, but I do find it odd that out here in the blogosphere, so many adoptive parents are so well behaved and use all the right phrases, but in the real world, I hear a lot of stuff that would make you guys choke. After all, in the real world, there is no sign on my forehead saying "adoptee". No one knows if I don't tell them, and no one is careful about what they say. I hear uncomfortable stuff from other moms, non-adoptive moms too, but we all know what that's like. Like say, someone accidentally mentions that they spanked their kid, but you think spanking is horrible, so you choke on your coffee and excuse yourself. Well, I do the same when I hear an odd story from an adoptive parent who makes me feel uncomfortable and I'm not quite sure what to say. Mostly I choke and excuse myself, but sometimes I'll tell them I'm adopted and see what they say.
Mostly at that point they proceed to inform me that I must be so grateful that my adoptive parents took me in and then they make some crappy negative assumption about my birth parents---and then I roll my eyes and give up and walk away.
So what do you do when you hear odd stories from other parents, either adoptive or non-adoptive parents? Ignore them? Confront the person? Something in between?